June 27th, 2010

7 miles on the day.
Somerset 5k. Ran 16:32. It was hot and I don't know if it was that or what, but this was the slowest I've run for a 5k in years.
I was glad I went for Bill and for Rita and just to do it and be there with them, but man, I am sucking right now and it's no big mystery as to why; I'm not enjoying running right now, or more accurately, I'm not enjoying everything around it and leading up to and after it.
The running itself, the training runs, are great, but damn if I'm not having a lousy time getting motivated for anything.
Got to figure it out. I'd say "and fast," but I think that's part of the problem. My fear of my running mortality, a non-issue in terms of my actual mortality, is really playing with me. I'm almost 40, but who cares? I shouldn't, but it's back there and I need to forget about it and realize that if I want it - really want it - I can have it. It's not even a matter of just wanting, it's a matter of figuring out what I can do. I just have to be ready to work, and enjoy it at that.

M- 10
T- 12
W- 0
Th- 8
Fr- 10
Sa- 5
Su -7

week: 52 miles